Wednesday, June 17, 2009 @10:45 PM
"My eyes are open wide
By the way I made it through the day
I watch the world outside
By the way I'm leaving out today
I just saw Haley's Comet, she waved
Said, "Why are you always running in place?"
Even the man in the moon disappeared
Somewhere in the stratosphere
Tell my mother, tell my father I've done the best I can
To make them realize this is my life, I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying
Sometimes goodbye is a second chance..."
The perfect song describing how i feel atm... Such a complicated feeling...
lol I sang along when this was playing on the radio when i was driving... Pretty sure I was given funny looks, but it was so much fun! :D haha~
So, darling...
"By the way I made it through the day..." :) I miss your company... After the chaos has settled down, perhaps we can catch up? Start filling in the gaps, baby step by baby step?
I'm not saying we should become a couple again either.
I finally understand... You were right, I'm not ready. Neither are you, but I guess that's up to you. We've still got so much to grow, so much to become... I'm nervous about trying to grow...
But I decided to put myself on the line.
I'm going to put myself into situations that might not make me comfortable, but I'll do it... And I'll become more self-confident...
Dad told me, a mature person isn't emotionally dependent on anyone... And I realised the reason why I was so upset over the break up was because I didn't understand why you were letting me go. But now that I understand, it doesn't hurt so much. All the memories of us together no longer hurt me as much... They were fun, and happy.
If it were possible once, they can be possible again. :)
I'm looking forward to the future! ;)
And I'm grateful that you took the hardest step to make this all happen. I'll take a leaf out of your book, and use a metaphor... Our relationship was fun and full of sunshine, but like two plants just shooting, growing right next together wasn't good for either of us. :P
And for all this, I love you very much.
Thank you~ <3