Learnt to paint with watercolour... the colours blending together with a wash of water... rather pretty <3

Saw kangaroos on an evening stroll today~ It had just rained and everything smelt so fresh and clean... Music pumping in my ears, sister happily chatting by my side...

Things can be okay.

Until you get home, and find your parents. One fumes angrily on the couch, and the other tiredly forces a smile and tells you to go get the mail. When you return, the both of them are slumped on the couch watching TV. You retreat to your room, and try to find sancturary in your little msn chats...

Sigh.

Can't wait to get away from here...

When one gets bored and google searches their name:

Lyrics to the song, "Tinsa Wahda"
http://www.actionext.com/names_a/amr_diab_lyrics/tinsa_wahda.html

What TINSA stands for
http://acronyms.thefreedictionary.com/TINSA

Acronym: TINSA
Definition: Tasaciones Inmobiliarias SA (Spanish real estate appraisal company)

LOL there's a Tinsa on MySpace!
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=133749863

Yeah, yeah... And for the next few pages its just dominated by the song... ^^" This was sparked by the fact i got an email from facebook telling me that "Tinsa Owens" had added me as a friend, but when i checked, there was no Tinsa Owens... o_o" creepy yes?

I find it interesting that the person i see, is completely reversed from the person that everyone else sees. I don't often see pictures of myself; on the otherhand, i constantly see my reflection peek back at me every morning and every night. And then, people i know, they constantly see me from the outside... it feels weird...

Another thing that constantly amuses me is when one is spontaneous and everyone else gets confused ;) 'Nudging' people on msn... spamming someone with emoticons....yelling people's full names.... running after stupid pigeons in Garema Place.... Going through a field of dandelions and trying to get all of them...

Just a small insight into what I do to amuse myself ^^

lol a trip to the orthodentist proved to be useful - I finally learnt where i channel all my stress! And that is, through grinding my teeth >.<" I've worn my teeth down so much that they're no longer as sharp as they should be in areas.... It's that bad.

tbh, I'm not that surprised. I mean, knowing how much stress i go through... and the lack of teenage-angst-channeled-into-physical-destruction.... my poor poor teeth. Sigh.

Oh well. Good news is that I'm not the only one - about 25% of the population does it. And so there is a suitable cure. >_0

But I guess this also means i really have to find a better outlet for all this stress! *stresses over stressing* ahhhhh... stupid girl. Hopefully I won't be so stressed later in the holidays, after moving house! D:

Somedays, I feel so compelled to take complete control of my life and wrench it from my parents' hands. Somedays, I don't give a damn. Somedays, I just want to throw it all away. Somedays, I plan everything down to the last detail, and I feel so confident of myself.

Somedays, I just look back and wonder... Was all that effort worth it?

What I hate more than anything is being stuck in between. Not being completely drenched, not being completely dry... but in between. Indecisive. Half-baked.

And its all about my grades... Putting it into perspective with the rest of my life, a row of letters plastered next to a series of subjects doesn't seem all too significant. But when your parents see them, they hammer so much meaning and importance into them, leaving you feeling little more than a miserable slob whose efforts might as well have been nothing. Leaving you feeling so empty and alone.

At that point, you suffer silence. It doesn't matter that you try to talk to them. All you can do is sit and listen to them tell you what you've heard all your life. You drift in and out of the conversation, thinking of how they had abandoned you at the start of high school. They didn't realise it. They were too busy for that. And now, they don't know where they went wrong with you. You try to tell them, and they listen. But they don't understand. Instead, they continue to talk at you. And again, you sit and listen, waiting for them to stop.

And all you really wanted was for them to change. And to accept the change you were going through.

Oh, and btw I've been grounded. For the first time in my life. Since I don't usually go out. The only exception is for a pending Christmas party, and the weekends are free. But still.

It's the freaking HOLIDAYSSS!!!! WTFWTFWTFWTF T_T

Well, i finally got myself a bloggu. Its nice to have a page you can completely customise and upload anything onto the one page... I guess this will just be a little log of new and exciting things in my life, and perhaps one day I'll look back and see just how far I've come... Its good, cuz i can also hide this from certain parental units ;P Hehe~

Anyway... Hopefully I'll use this more often. <3

s u z u t i
. life's little snippets .
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